Oh Lord, it's the cry of my heart...

Recently, the Lord has placed a song on my heart that has been moving me in so many ways. The chorus says, "Ask and I'll give the nations to you..."

I've really been meditating on that line. The Lord of the universes, the maker of the Heavens and the Earth, the Ruler of it all is calling me to something great. He is calling me to reach out my hand and to ask Him to use me. ME. I am wretched and unworthy and a complete mess, but He looks past all these iniquities and desires for me to step out in faith and run to the nations with the news of his amazing love and redemption over all! How amazing is that?!?! And I am so grateful that the Lord has not let me set limits on Him in my life. He so faithfully gives me more than I know I am even willing to take, but he always uses it for good.

So as of now, I have a lot of work to do and a lot of change to pray for. I need to begin to really align my plans with the plans of God. There are so many times when I think about where I want to go, or what I want to do next, and the only thing I can think is "something beautiful." I imagine all the beautiful somethings I could do: kissing, dancing, writing, music, reading, photography…none of them are enough. I want to be beautiful in a way that radiates from me, that makes me mostly light and maybe only a little skin, maybe only a little bones and muscle and eyes. I want to be beautiful in a way that fills heaven and lights fire to the fabric of space.
it’s the only way I can describe it. It’s the same reason I want to get married, and have children, to reach young adults and dance with people. It’s the same thing that makes me breathless when I think about the future of falling in love, it’s the way my fingers feel when I’m writing, the way my lungs feel at the beach, the way my heart feels when I’m near someone I care about.

I want so much. I want to see so much life be brought into this world. I want to see the Father being glorified through it all.

But above all this, I know that I was simply made to be His. And that is enough for me. HE is my something beautiful. And he will take me to the depths and heights within my soul that i never knew existed. And He will paint upon the canvas He created until the world looks at me and sees only Him. Oh, I hunger for that!!! Until then I'm working on being content with whatever it is the Lord is trusting me with. And my heart is singing all the while.

"Ask and I'll give the nations to you..."

Lord, I'm asking...